On my mind. Love and signs from the universe.

These days are emotional. Filled with sentiments and nostalgia. Maybe it`s the missing sun. Or the anniversary of going to the clinic, last year, and the year before…

I really don`t know, and it also doesn`t matter.

I just returned from a beautiful evening walk. It was chilly and oh so green from all the rain we` ve been having. I felt kind of heavy – in my body and in my heart.

But I also felt new-ness and healing…

Accepting.

Who I am and what I do and what I did.

It`s all okay and a part of my journey.

I very much feel like I don`t fit in, or I don`t do or say the „right“ things.

But that really doesn`t matter. What matters, is what`s inside of me.

My attitude, my balance, myself.

That`s how people survive terrible things. That`s how people do great things.

Because they still have light and love inside their heart and souls…

So as I was wandering through the woods, my thoughts wandered to the subject of love.

How I am on the path of finding love within myself. But also, that I want and miss feeling and giving that love to someone.

I am still recovering from loosing my first love.

It takes time. There are days, yes even weeks that are filled with so much other stuff, I don`t even have time to think about it.

But then, suddenly, there it is again.

That heavy feeling ond my chest.

Hurt. Loss. Loneliness.

Sometimes it`s a word, a memory or just an episode of friends, that brings it all back…

Anyways – back to the woods.

As I was walking, thinking about love and letting go my fear of never finding it again, I found this:

Yes. A heart shaped rock.

So very powerful.

So, I felt and knew, I am on the right path. The path of loving myself more each day. And also the path of finding a soul, that belongs next to mine.

One that is just as quirky, one that is a dreamer, thinker, adventure seeker and free spirit, like I am.

It is out there. And we will find eachother, when we`re both ready…

Love.

Sara